Just a nightmare.

My first post in 2013.

I just hope that today was just a saddening nightmare for me.

Please God just take it all away from me. I don't want to face this.

I couldn't shout, I couldn't talk to anyone that actually care. They just laugh and laugh to my sadness.

I need somebody to talk to, that actually understand and sincerely care for me.

Let there be Sam and Patrick and Charlie into my life so that they can teach me the true meaning of friendship.

So many to talk to but this tiny fragile heart couldn't be strong enough to make them feel a burden for me.

I just want everybody to be happy with their life and not focusing on me.

But as a human with full of emotions, I can't resist all the attention that I actually need.

I'm not trying to be attention seeker or something but I need a little bit sincere care from them.

But I'm thankful enough to the fact that I can hear mama's and unnie's voice without them sobbing about me.

I'm dying to tell them what I'm feeling inside but I don't want to make them worry. 

I know everybody busy with everything and I know the fact that no one actually read this emotional-squishy post of mine, but...

This is the only way that can make my heart feel at ease.

Alhamdulillah, I'm still alive.